sCaRleT SkY

2010-10-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

i am rather happy that i still have my blog around...
first.. any unhappy stuff can go into it and even if it offend others..

I DUN GIVE A DAMN!!!!

so here goes..

I was supposed to meet up with my project mates tml for discussion..
I receive this message this morning..

"Lady and gentlemen.. Cu all bout 10am at old can a..
(Person A) bring ur laptop thx.. (Person B) dont drink too
much alcohol.. Kim Hang if got time try think of how we shud
calculate the building stresses.. Ty.."

So others just need to bring laptop and dun drink too much alcohol
and they have already contribute in our project???

I won't say I am doing everything in this project.. but the conceptual ideas,
the approach for doing the project, the approach to do our presentation..

i believe i have put in my due effort to make everything work..

den in the afternoon, that girl sent out this message..

"When are you guys available? I came home this morning
and I am having a fever."

what kind of message is this.. and when i asked her what she asking about..
she is actually asking to postpone the meet up..
what the hell loh..
she expect everyone to change the time just for her..
and jolly well.. everyone else agree to meet up another time..
fuck you all...
now i wanna contact one of them and he didnt switch on his phone..
damn you all people..

i admit i am evil and heartless..
and that's me..

if you dun like it..
so be it..

i can tell you.. i dun like working with you either..
no wonder the girl from another group dun want to talk to you when she sees you..
you are such an irresponsible piece of shit..

2010-10-18T23:38:00.003+08:00

it is so common to see people holding to an iphone..
on the train, it is not surprised if there are at least 10 person holding on to an iphone..

as iphone is now so common and the number of things you can do with it..
my urge to buy one is getting stronger..
but with the same amount of money..
maybe i shoud get a new lens instead?

man.. i have so much things that i desired..
any kind soul would get them for me??

2010-10-14T20:56:00.002+08:00

seriously.. i am starting to hate travelling to school..
not because of the distance or the time used..
but everyday after i reached home, i will feel so tired..
and because of that, totally no mood to do work..

also... my mum is getting on my nerves..
it is so true that my whole family cannot stay together for too long..
alot of problems will arise..

another thing that pissed me off for the past month..
the stupid people in my group for teh design project..
is it that difficult for them to take a little bit of initiative to do something..
why does it seem like i am doing everything..

f*** you all bastards and bitch
if you don't wanna do anything.. just say so..
if you don't what to do.. ask..
i am getting more and more fed up that i have to tell you what to do every now and then

what makes matter worst is that the things you all do are all half fuck work..
no effort shown at all...

i now only wish that my prof will not judge me down because of the group effort he sees. =(

2010-10-11T00:44:00.003+08:00

it has been two months since i last step in here to post some rubbish..
a lot have happened for the last two months..

i worked two part time jobs concurrently,
i went to bali with the clan and realised the trip is too short,
i got to bowl almost everyday and find that bowling is a great workout to train for pull-ups,
and last but not least, the ipod shuffle (1st gen) has fulfilled it's duty and passed away..

now school has started and i played a weeks long of hide and seek with my fyp prof..
also, i don't know why i find this semester to be the most stressful ever..
and it's is really great to have a dart board at home to relief some of that stress..

so, having installed a dart board in my room..
i think next it will be either getting a new music player or an upgrade for my camera..
well.. both will cost me about $600,
so the main problem is which to spend the money on??

2010-08-08T02:30:00.001+08:00

我应该不是很过分吧。
我只不过是想在一位，
不会很胖，
看上去得体的女朋友。

2010-05-29T03:05:00.003+08:00

i have never felt so bad about myself.
i think it all started after i received my O level result.
it seem like no matter how much i study i will never ever obtain the result i want.
it is like so different from before.

sometimes, i wonder if it is because i am really that stupid and could not understand.
or it is just that i did not put in enough effort.

no matter what, i am just another failed person.
not able to do well in studies, nor in social life.

i am already 25.
as i grew older, i found that i am losing interest in alot of things.
i am losing my interest in basketball, losing the interest to go back hong kong.

something is really wrong with me.
i know i have been a person with weird interest and liking,
but recently i cannot even stand my own weirdness and i am starting to hate myself.

i do not feel that i belong here and in fact,
i am actually wasting my time, making futile attempts to create my presence.

i know it's not the first time but i do hope i could end my life somehow.

2010-05-14T19:30:00.002+08:00

It's my birthday today.

Here's my wishlist:

PS3 console
Bayoneta
Assassin Creeds II
Brutal Legend
LittleBigPlanet
new laptop
another camera lens
a tlf camera, but not a bbf
some unique films
dart board
lots of hard liquor
meet new girl - friends
last but not least --> MS or Syn (both totally not possible)

2010-03-31T17:54:00.002+08:00

as day goes by, i am unable to picture how she look like in my mind.
rather, the image of her in my mind is getting more and more blur each time.
does that mean i don't really like her?

2010-03-30T22:56:00.002+08:00

Uni life have been rather interesting so far

In year one I met Fangling, but we remain just as friend.
The next year, I met Janica, but we were not fated to be together.

Now in year 3, I am interested in another girl.
She is taller than average girl you find on the street,
have a very bubbly personality, and have a very beautiful smile.

But I think, the feeling came at a wrong time..
Maybe, it will be gone if I don't think so much about it?

2010-03-15T08:40:00.002+08:00

the price of coe is on the rise.. It just means i will have to wait even longer before i can afford to own a car =(

2010-03-13T14:52:00.001+08:00

我要钱~~
and I am starting to miss Hong Kong.. =(

2010-02-11T18:28:00.001+08:00

-sigh-
As I grow older, I somehow feel that I am such a failure.
I know I should not be so pessimistic, but I can't help it.

I wonder how am I doing in the parallel worlds??

Guilty/Sinful day

2010-01-30T23:45:00.002+08:00

I feel so sinful/guilty today.
I am supposed to go down to the national library to do research for my project.
But I ended up at queensway with Yonghwa and accompany him buying Wii.

After spending time at queensway, we went down to Orchard.
We went to try the GO GO Curry at the basement of ION.
It was rather famous and was recommended in the Straits Times.

I had Pork Katsu Curry, $12.50 for the economy class, the normal portion.
The portion is alright, quite value for money.
The different in class is just the different amount of rice.
They use weight to ensure everyone have the same amount of rice for the class ordered.

We also ordered extra cheese topping, which cause another $1.
The amount of topping they gave was quite generous.
As for the curry, it is not the typical curry we see in any japanese restaurant.
It is not spicy, and taste is quite unique.

The pork katsu is not bad as it's not too deep fried till you won't be able to taste the meat within.
If you are going with a friend, it's more worth the money if you order the grand slam curry.
It's portion seems to be made for two person.
It has one piece of chicken and pork katsu each, 2 sausages, one boiled egg and one prawn tempura.

Overall, I would give 3 out of 5.
Because I would prefer if the curry is a bit more spicy.

Legion

2010-01-25T01:39:00.002+08:00

Dear friends,

Please do not go watch Legion coz the storyline is weird and seriously.. not worth the money to watch it in the cinema. Either wait for download or watch it online..

I bought another 4 rolls of 35mm slide.. They only cost me $10.. but I dunno when I will have the time to use them..hahaha what a waste of money..hahah

2010-01-19T22:50:00.003+08:00

i am rather pissed..

first is the committee den another committee..
and finally the person at the cashier of my school mac.

seriously... must find way to vent off this fustration...

elective

2010-01-15T11:43:00.002+08:00

it's really cool to go for elective.. You get to see alot of people from other course.. And the best thing is you will get to see alot of other pretty girls and boys.. Like right now.. There are two girls sitting at the next roll.. I wont say they are pretty but the way they dress is hot.. Think i will stick on with the elective.. The lecture is an AT but he is funny...haha

2010-01-10T22:50:00.001+08:00

要开学了，我想到的竟然是她。
看来，我还是忘不了芳伶。

2009-10-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

There are like so many things that one could wish for in his entire life.
And of course, he will not be able to get everything he wanted.
If not, life will be boring as there won't be any ups and downs.

My most recent wish is to get a new camera lens.
I got the DSLR from my dad few years back, and I am feeling restricted by the ability of the current lens.
But after doing much research and asking around for advice, it seems like getting a new camera will be a better choice. -sigh-

2009-09-19T02:27:00.002+08:00

I had a rather wonderful week alone in Singapore.
My mum went back to Hong Kong and I was allowed to use the car whenever I please.

On Sat, drove out to Suntec with Sham and Heyu for comex.
Also, we went over to Marina Barrage for Ben & Jerry's Chunk Feast.
For the first time, I am at Marina Barrage.
Photos will be up, as soon as I get them develop.

It was a very hot day, and the ice cream melt damn fast.
It was a race against time juz to finish it before it is fully melted.

Sunday went out with Wenyun to watch The Time Traveller's Wife.
I was able to finish the book before I watch the movie.
Personally, I feel the movie is nice.
But when compared to the book,
the ending part seems to be slightly twisted.

After the movie, both of us went back to my house to get the car,
and we went over to queensway.
She wanted to look at running shoes, while I wanted to go Anchorpoint to visit the Pedro Outlet store.

Thou I promised my mum that if I am driving, I will be home by 11.30pm,
and I will never drive the car to work.
I didnt stick to the promises at all.
Monday and Tuesday, I drove back to hall and reach home at around 12.
On Wednesday, I stayed in hall till 12 so I end up staying over.
So on Thursday morning, I drove to work as I wanted to sleep slightly more.

It was quite an experience driving to work.
On Thursday, I drove back to hall after work.
I was able to reach hall by 6pm, never been back so early before.

Since Kahei is still in school, went to meet her for dinner.
She left for her project meeting while I go for carrom training.
As Kahei's meeting ended around 10 plus, so I went over to fetch her home.
It was to ensure I get out of hall by 11 plus so I can go home too.

Friday, which is today, was supposed to be a very good day.
Supposed to have a half day, so I planned to meet Fangling for lunch.
And also meet the other hall rec sec for dinner.

But things start to change the moment I stepped out of my house.
I was supposed to drive all the way to work.
But I took a detour back to school to pick up Xin Yi.
As she woke up late, so give her a lift to the MRT so she could make it to work.
And because of that, I reached the office exactly at 8am.

Then, my supervisor came over to tell me to stay behind and help out the engineer.
Which means, my half day is being postponed.
I feel so bad coz I have to fly Fangling aeroplane.
Also, the meet up with other rec sec was cancelled coz a lot of them can't make it.

I was stucked in the office till 4 plus.
I was thinking of asking Fangling for dinner but her mum will be cooking.
So I have no choice but drove home and prepare my own dinner.

After this week, I realised that I still have feelings for Fangling after so long.
Yes, she is attached but I am sure, I am still interested in her.
Some time I wonder, why didn't we get together last time?
Still, I won't regret coz we are still friends after all.

And I truly believe she is happy with the person she is with now. =)

2009-08-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

There is something I always forgot.
I must not have too high hope for others.
They may not be able to reach the work requirement I wanted.

Like what my friend say, not everyone know the truth meaning of responsible.
Or they are responsible, but not to everything that links to them.

So.. I must always remind myself,
Don't be pissed off with people, just do what you need to do.
Don't rely on anyone on doing anything unless they voluntarily offer their servies.

And the rule of thumb, trust yourself, rely on yourself.

2009-08-30T00:31:00.002+08:00

I wonder if all parents are supportive towards their children?
Well, being a parent, they should be right?

Sometimes I wonder why my mum isn't.
She will be objecting to almost everything I do.

Example,
When I was in secondary school, she will not allow me to go for basketball try out.
Reason, cause the try out is in the morning.

Anyway, I just hope my mum will learn to be more supportive.

Wonderful week

2009-08-22T01:35:00.003+08:00

It has been a wonderful week.
I got to do a few of a first time thingy this week.

I get to be drunk for the first time.
Drank till puke for the first time.
Got my first MC because of hangover.

I also get to see Fangling in NTU.
It has been almost 5 months since I last met her.
She is now unemployed but she looks so much prettier.
To be frank, I think the rest she is having now gave her back the glow.

Looks like no matter how long it takes,
my feelings for her will never change.

I also get to drive my first lorry.
It's a bit longer than usual car,
but thanks to the small training I had with my dad's seven seater,
I was able to manage it.
And it's a manual car.
So, it's the first time I am driving a manual car after getting my license.

It has been an exciting week and the best part is meeting up wtih Fangling.
Sometimes I wonder, if I have asked her in the past, would she be mine.

How different will our lives be if I have asked.

Wonderful week

2009-08-22T01:35:00.000+08:00

Stupid day

2009-08-02T21:48:00.002+08:00

Today I did something rather stupid.
In order not to stay at home and face my mum,
I went out to Bugis, City Hall and Dhoby Ghaut.
Bugis is to collect the photo I sent for development.
Then City Hall and Dhoby Ghaut is just to walk around and kill time.

Maybe I am just being childish,
but the reason why I don't wanna face my mum is because of the car.
Today is Sunday, and I asked if I could use the car.
But she said no immediately after I ask.

Well, this is usual but I am not happy is because of the reason she give to me.
I am not allow to drive just because last Saturday,
I didn't reach home at the time I told her.

Just because of that, she don't trust me with the car.
This is rather sad,
the lack of trust between the parent and the child..
-sigh-

What a week

2009-08-02T21:27:00.002+08:00

Friday was some fun day for the company..
and I do not need to go for work.
Went out to send my photo to develop and watch the Public Enemy.
I don't like it personally.. too confusing for me..

At night, went to meet the freshies who are coming for the FOC.
I really regret not changing my IA to sem 2..
Can't attend the FOC this year.

Thanks to Yong Chuan, I was able to watch the NDP preview.
The last time I get to watch the show was because I was there on duty.
Anyway, this year's show is very interesting.
Not like few years back, which are rather dull.

Below are some picture taken with my lousy camera.

Bag found!!!

2009-08-01T13:07:00.002+08:00

I have finally found the bag I want..
Look at the pic above...
Anyone see this kind of bag in sg??

It has been so long

2009-07-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I last blogged.
But it was even longer since I last saw Huixian.

Today I get to go out for dinner with her.
It shall be a day I never will forget.

After so many years, she is still pretty like last time.
And today, I get to know so much more about her.
Or maybe is I didn't know anything about her in the past.

It's really great meeting up with her today.
Hope there are more to come...

2009-07-04T02:31:00.002+08:00

went out with Shamala today for another movie marathon...
she brought her Holga camera out... and i think it's damn cool..
thou you have to do the winding of the film after each shot
and also have to be in the dark so as not to let the film to be exposed after it has been used it..
I think it is really cool to own one of those camera...

I know mervyn have one with him..
and he is really good at taking photography..
After playing with shamala's camera,
I am tempted to get one too..haha

If I am getting one..
Maybe the white one will be nice..
coz everyone seems to be getting the black one..
must be a bit more unique..hahah

Recent updates

2009-07-01T03:47:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I last updated.
Well.. EID is finally over by the end of May.
And the result is out recently.. I got A-
I wonder if everyone get the same grade.

Went back to Hong Kong the week before.
Stay there only for a week.
Get to meet up with Bangwei and Peijun.
Well.. nothing much to talk about..
just the duration of staying there is too short.
Not enough time to enjoy myself.

Attended my god sister's wedding at Shangri-la Rasa Sentosa.
They had a western wedding where the dinner was buffet style.
Don't really like it.
Think I still prefer the chinese style
where everyone gets to drink a bowl of sharkfin soup.

I suspect the food there is not very clean.
My mum vomited everything out the moment we stepped out of the ballroom.
And I had diarrhoea the moment I reached home.

Thursday is Huiling's birthday..
Should I go for the celebration??
I am not very close with her thou...
If I am going..
it is only polite that I should get her something.
What should I get??

2009-06-08T22:48:00.002+08:00

I had a great time yesterday night.
Went out to meet Janice for dinner.

I think I have not seen her for half a year,
and now she became much prettier.
Maybe is because she is now having a better stand posture.

We went to some Korean BBQ at Esplanade for dinner.
The food is not bad, just a bit too expansive.
Well, the price to pay for eating authentic korean food.

Now I have met up with Janice,
I wonder when will I get to meet up with Penny?

Hope it will be some day real soon.

2009-05-28T01:38:00.002+08:00

WWOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~

No EID meeting tomorrow.. it's time to do what I planned to do last week.
Should I go to the museums or bowling???
Think museums will be more interesting?

Let's see what time I will wake up tomorrow,
then I shall decide where I should go.

PHOTO TIME

2009-05-24T10:39:00.000+08:00

2009-05-23T01:51:00.002+08:00

I have always remind myself that I should post something on my birthday.. but I have always forgot or just to lazy to back post.. anyway.. I have been having holiday, or rather, doing the eid for almost a month now.. and I am glad I am in this group..

Even thou I am not very happy with some people in the group.. I just keep things to myself and finish whatever that requires me to do. I understand it's the holiday and everyone wanna enjoy themselves.. but I really think one should put their priorities right.. If we are having a meeting in the morning.. at least try to be on time rather than complaining that why do we have to meet so early or dun even appear for the meeting at all...

Or when there is something to do, don't give stupid excuses that I cannot wake up early to reach school on time.. even words like, "I can't wake up so early in the morning because of my medication. If my mum dun wake me up, I won't be able to wake up until 11am." and "I am sorry that I am late and you guys have to do everything. I apologise because I feel bad that everything is done by the time I reached." I really think this kind excuses are really stupid.. Coz there are times where you can reach school at 8 or 9.30am but you cant reach school at 10am. Or can sms at 8am, saying you won't be able to come to school in the afternoon..

Anyway, it's going end soon.. I am fine if anyone in the group thinks I have been slacking alot during all the discussion and preparation for this project.. Because I am used to being not recognised for things I done..

I know I will be offending people by posting this on my blog... but this is one place where I can bitch about freely... If you start to hate me or hate me even more becoz of what I wrote here, so be it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~

2009-05-13T21:06:00.001+08:00

Must wish happy birthday to my sweet sweet sister Sharon.
Very long never see her le...
I wonder how is she now..

These few days is rather tiring,
going to school early in the morning,
if not, I will be travelling around with the eid group to buy stuff.

Thou we seems to be very hardworking and efficient,
but I think we are actually not that efficient.
For example, the five of us have to meet at certain place and travel down to a few location.
We could have go to the different location on our own and ask for the price and stuff.

To the others, because we have someone who is driving, so they don't think it matters.
But I just feel that, if the place is not so accessible, then we could have gone on our own.
This way, we could have been a bit more effective.

Weakling~~~

2009-05-03T00:41:00.002+08:00

Too long never play basketball le..
went out to play this evening..
I dunno if it's the floor that is too slippery,
or my stamina could not catch up with my body..

I was like walking around the court most of the time.
Maybe that is also one reason
why I am not really important to the team in hall..

But I must say, those people in my hall are really good..

Well time to train up my physical..
IPPT in 10 days time..

2009-04-26T16:19:00.002+08:00

On Saturday night, I went for jogging.
It does help me to relieve the stress I am having from all the studying.
But my stamina is not as good as before.
I could not finish one round around NTU.
Ended up walking back to hall at the last stretch.

When I was jogging, I thought of some things.
I am going to be 24 soon.
By the time I graduate, I will be 26.
I am like getting so old, but yet I have not achieve anything at all.
Or to be more precise, I am already 24 but I still do not know what I want.

Last night when I went down to play darts.
I realised, that is something that I wanted to do.
As in, to be trained to be a professional player.
I wonder what can I do to achieve that??

Today is a happy day

2009-04-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today is a happy day.
I get to meet the two person who will brighten up my day.

Went for dinner with Aaron and Bangwei they all.
They also called Shuxian along,
which I am delighted to see her.

We wanted to eat at Can 11, but the western is closed.
So we ended up going over to Can 14.

When we were there, burns, the western store is closed too.
In the end we decided to go down to Can 13.

When I was at Can 14, I saw Serene.
I don't know why, but every time I see her,
I will feel very happy.

Chatted with her for like 5 minutes and follow the rest to Can 13.

On the way back, I get to talk to Shuxian for like 10 minutes.
It's not those chatting in a group but one to one chat.
Damn shiok.

I know it sound very dumb,
but I am really happy to see them
and also get to talk to them.

COWS

2009-04-09T02:11:00.000+08:00

TRADITIONAL CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You sell one and buy a bull.
Your herd multiplies and the economy grows.
You sell them and retire on the income.

AN AMERICAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You sell one and force the other to produce the milk of four cows.
You are surprised when the cow drops dead.

A FRENCH CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You go on strike because you want three cows.

A JAPANESE CORPORATION

You have two cows..
You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk.
You then create clever cow cartoon images called 'Cowkimon' and market them World-Wide.

A GERMAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You re-engineer them so they live for 100 years, eat once a month, and milk themselves.

A BRITISH CORPORATION

You have two cows.
Both are mad.

AN ITALIAN CORPORATION

You have two cows, but you don't know where they are.
You break for lunch..

A SWISS CORPORATION

You have 5,000 cows and none of which belong to you.
You charge others for storing them.

A CHINESE CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You have 300 people milking them..
You claim full employment and high bovine productivity.
You have the newsman who reported on the numbers arrested.

AN INDIAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You worship them.

A MALAYSIAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
You signed a 40-year contract to supply milk at RM0.06 per litre.
Then midway through, you raised the price to RM0.60 or you cut the supply.
When the buyer agrees to the new price, you change your mind again and now want RM1.20.
The buyer decided you can keep the milk and they go look for milk that comes from recycled cows or the cow urine instead.
Your two cows retire together with the Prime Minister.

And last but not least,

A SINGAPOREAN CORPORATION

You have two cows.
One cow-peh and one cow-bu.

2009-03-30T02:44:00.002+08:00

Just now I had the most enjoyable one hour for the past few weeks.
Get to meet up with the Joint Hall Rec Sec.
Whenever we get together, it is always noisy and full of craps.

One good thing is I get to see Serene.
I have not seen her since the end of IHRG.
And she still look as pretty as before.

It's nice to hang out with them.
Let's hope that the chalet that they wanted to organise will be able to come true.

2 weeks to exam,
motivation to study is lost. WTH!!

Feeling EMO~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-03-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today I did something out of the norm.
I didn't asked Jan if she wanna meet for lunch,
and she didn't ask me either.

We have been meeting up for lunch since the start of this semester.
Maybe this is how everything is going end up to be.
Thought I am still stupidly waiting for her,
but I am doing nothing to make things work.

Looks like I am like the other guys.
say will wait, but not doing anything to make it happen.

2009-03-24T02:13:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, everything seems not that important anymore.
It's like I shall just do whatever that comes to me.
There is no need to look back at what is done,
and also there isn't a need to plan ahead.

And that is terrible...

2009-03-19T21:06:00.003+08:00

Life sucks when you are sick.
But I get to experience something new.
I went to the medicial clinic in school.
So for the first time, I reported sick in school.

But it's really sucky.
I am feeling giddy, especially after walking up and down the stairs.
I need to sleep alot, which used up most of my time.

I really feel so frustrated with myself.
Why am I so disorientated in this semester,
so many tutorials left undone, project deadline to meet, reports to complete.
Why do I fall sick at such time.
HATE IT!!!

2009-03-11T01:30:00.001+08:00

The hall birthday cum subcom night had finally come to an end.
I was afraid that the event won't be able to go through smoothly.
But everything went well, and I think that everyone enjoyed the food and the cake.

Now I only left with the post event report to finish,
then I could finally settle down to study for my examination.

Today is the weekly lunch time with her.
I have not seen her for one week and I really miss her alot.

She say she is going to study smart, and get her 2 honors.
She will stay focus and won't be logging into msn that often.
Well, can that consider a rejection to me?
I don't know.

To be frank, my mind right now only have math 4, thermo, 2011 and jap.
I don't even think I have enough memory space to accomadate all that.
-SAD-

2009-03-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

I think, alcohol have a very heavy effect on people.
That day after I drank with Fangling, and she hugged me.
I really think it's the effect of alcohol.

She might not be drunk but she is doing something
which I think she will not do if she didn't drink at all.

Anyway, I think I shall face the reality.
She is already attached,
and I shall move on.

Even though I know Janica does not seem to have any feel for me,
I am still doing my best to treat her well.
But I don't know why,
recently we seems to be rather distant.
Maybe I am just thinking too much.

Lesson learnt

2009-03-04T02:35:00.003+08:00

Never rely on others to do something unless you have explained properly to him/her.
This is because that person does not know what you really want unless you tell her specifically. Main point, don't assume.

Also, it's always to settle things on your own as long as it's within your capability. By doing so, things are will be settled fast and definitely the way you want it to be.

Lastly, understand how every person style of doing stuff. This is to let you know who to look for to get something done.

2009-03-01T13:42:00.003+08:00

Last night, or rather this morning at 12.30am..
I went out to Ghim Moh and met Fangling for a drink.
I helped her marked a few test paper before we had our drink.

She bought down Choya from her house
and we sat at her void deck and chatted.
From 1am till 3 plus, we were there talking.

When I sent her home, this time all the way to her doorstep.
She gave me a hug before we parted.
It's the first time we hugged after we know each other for so long.

When I was hugging her, the time seems to have stopped.
Or maybe is I wish I could freeze the time at that moment.
I really like the feeling of hugging her.
It felt very coay.

Maybe deep down inside me,
I still have feelings for her.

2009-02-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

Like very long never talk about my own stuff le...

Well... things are rather fine..
Studies are alright, though still cannot understand most of the stuff taught.
Relationship are rather stable ba..
been spending time with my friends and her...
Seems like no progress, but I think just let nature takes it's course.

My phone is dying,
hope it could survive till I have the money to get a new one.
I seem to be spending quite a lot recently..
wanted to find some part time,
but with economy like now, it's hard to find job.

Well, the solution to my problems..
stop thinking and stay focus on my studies ba..

To the special someone

2009-02-26T22:40:00.001+08:00

From the first you swept me off my feet,
I felt like there was nothing I couldn't do,
That if only you were there,
There would be absolutely nothing to stop me.

Months passed on but the feeling stayed,
You stayed steady by my side,
Everything seemed to be such bliss,
So long as you were there beside me.

I cherished every moment spent with,
When you had to go,
I could not wait for your return,
And all over again you would sweep me off my feet.

Now you say it is time to part,
How can this be when I still feel for you,
It seems time as changed you,
You say you need to move on.

I will still cherish every moment spent,
Even though the memory now hurts,
You helped me feel complete,
Maybe someday we will be together again.

2009-02-23T22:56:00.002+08:00

My first try on baking a cake.
I made a strawberry shortcake.
2009 has been an interesting year for me.

For the first time, I tried to make a cake for someone I like.
I tried to make cheesecake, and the comments are not bad.
Today, I tried baking strawberry shortcake.

My friend all asked me who did I make the cake for.
Well, it's rather obvious.
But I just wanna try out and experience how it feel to bake a cake.

Anyway, the photo is just part of the cake.
Does not look very delicious though. -HAHA-

2009-02-23T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's has been a long time since I last update something.
Today I drove over to Caijie's house for her 21st birthday party.
Had fun there eating and playing board games brought over by Eng Yong.
The food is really nice, maybe I shall order from the same cater for hall birthday.

To be frank, the happiest thing is I get to drive over.
I know I should not be saying that,
but getting to drive is the happiest thing that can ever happen to me.

These few days, I have been thinking of some thing.
Am I humourous?
Am I smart?
Will I be someone who could fulfill her needs?

2009-02-20T18:41:00.002+08:00

Today is a super duper angry, frustrating, du lan, pek chey day.
Especially after my test this morning.

2009-02-06T00:43:00.002+08:00

1. Intelligent
2. Humorous
3. Adventurous
4. Reliable
5. Independent
6. Ambitious

Six qualities that makes someone to stand out from others.
How many do you have??

Frankly speaking, I think I only possess 2 or 3 of them.

2009-02-01T18:13:00.001+08:00

I miss my old self.
Through the years, after meeting all kinds of people,
I believe the person I am now is totally different from who I am 5 years ago.

Sometimes, I hope I could go back to be who I am 5 years ago.

Chinese New Year

2009-01-28T09:04:00.002+08:00

This year's chinese new year is different from the previous years.
Because of Janica, this year is totally different.
I went out her, together with her four cousins, for a movie yesterday.

After the movie, I followed them back to her uncle's house.
Which I don't know why tag along.
It was rather awkward as I do not know any of her relative,
and I was just a friend of hers.
And in the end, I was there for the rest of the afternoon.

Though it was a weird hanging out at her uncle's house,
but it is rather fulfilling.
I got a few red packets from her uncles and aunties.
The amount of money is not important,
it's the thought that counts.

因为你，这个牛年变的与众不同 =）

2009-01-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Rules of thumb:
No one is going to miss you when you are gone.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR MY FRIENDS

2009-01-25T19:42:00.001+08:00

愛一個人 … …
要了解，也要開解；
要道歉，也要道謝；
要認錯，也要改錯；
要體貼，也要體諒；

是接受，而不是忍受；
是寬容，而不是縱容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰問，而不是質問；
是傾訴，而不是控訴；
是難忘，而不是遺忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是為對方默默祈求，而不是向對方諸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪費；
可以隨時牽手，但不要隨便分手。

你是我最深爱的人

2009-01-24T20:12:00.001+08:00

This is for the girl I get to know this year.

HAPPY~~

2009-01-21T00:14:00.002+08:00

Today is a happy day.
I get to see someone whom I have not met for a long time.

In the evening, I went over to Holland Village to meet Fangling for dinner.
It has been a long time since I last saw her.
She had a new hair style, another type of beauty is shown.

It's a pity that she is already attached.
If not, I will try to woo her again.

She is now busy with teaching, a full time primary school teacher.
We talk quite a lot during dinner.
I am rather surprised as we do not seem to have so much to chat about in the past.

Actually, why do we stop seeing each other in the past.
If we have continue meeting up and going out,
we would have been together.

To think that I have like her so much,
yet I have done nothing to make her be my girl.
I am just so stupid...

Recent Favourite: 没有如果

2009-01-19T10:05:00.001+08:00

Happy day~~

2009-01-18T17:41:00.002+08:00

Went to play basketball with the usual group today.
But I didn't play alot because I am meeting Janica for lunch.
As I get to use the car today, we drove off to Ikea for lunch.

At first, we didn't know where to go.
It is because we wanted to eat something nice but budget.
If we go to shopping malls,
we will just end up eating at the food court.
And since she has not tried the meatballs at Ikea, we decided to go there.

After eating, we walked around Ikea, looked at their new display.
I think it has been quite some time that I go over to Ikea at Alexander Road.
The whole building is now under Ikea, no longer like last time where there are other shops.

After walking around, I sent her home.
Maybe next time we will go over to the Ikea at Tampines.

Came home, and made cheesecake again~~
This time, I am trying something different.
I decided to add a layer of chocolate on top.
Let's hope nothing happen and it taste good.. =)

2009-01-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

I had a haircut the moment I came back to Yishun yesterday.
Felt really good with it.
Though it seems a bit waste of money as I only trim and thinnen it.
But right now, I think I look much better than a few weeks ago.

Hopefully when she sees me, she will have a another good impression of me... =)

It's finally over

2009-01-16T01:58:00.000+08:00

Thursday was my last day of Interhall Games.
Basketball lost to hall 6 with 27-46.
For the whole 40 mins, I was seated on the bench all the while.
I am not surprised that ou team lost.
They did a match fixing, and end up facing Hall 6 in the semi-final.

They could have played better, but they lost their tempo at the last quarter.

For chinese chess, our hall played against hall 6 in the semi-final.
And they were unable to make it to the finals.
I must say, it was a double impact to me on that day.

The other players seem like the lost was nothing.
Maybe is because, the game has already ended.
So it's pointless to talk more about it.

I am rather sad that none of our sports make it to the finals.
The best we did for most of the games are to the semi-finals.
If only we did not play stunt,
our basketball team could have make it to the finals.

I won't be surprised if our sport standing drop this year.
And I think the sports secretary will not feel anything too.
But I am just feel a bit not worth it for our hall.

2009-01-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

This blog is so dead..
Maybe I should close it down.

Today was the re-match against Hall 16 for the place in semis.
We make it with a small win of 3-2.
Right now, it is the most troublesome part,
when should the semi and final be held.

To be fair to all 4 halls,
we asked when could their players make it.
The biggest problem is,
there isn't a day where all four halls could make it.

This really sucks because I don't know how long the IH will drag.
I just hope that we could get it done with.
Thou part of me does not want that to happen. :P

Sad?

2009-01-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

The Interhall Recreational Games are coming to an end.
I am rather sad because I won't be seeing the nice people in the JHRC.
Though we are all in the same school,
the chances of us meeting each other in school is so slim.

Just rather sad because I like to hang around with them...

Happy Birthday Janica..!!!

2009-01-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

Today.. the first day of school.
Day one in school is nothing much.
Just introduction by the lecturers and I ended school at 11.30.
I went out to Jurong Point with Bo'en and got the stationaries we need.

As today is Janica's birthday, I made her some cheesecake yesterday.
Also, I got her a necklace and an extra cake
so that the all the rec sec can celebrate her birthday.

Tonight was a rather peaceful night,
as there is no cake smashing happening.
I think it's because everyone is tired
and they want to eat the cake.

We finished up the cake and each hall's rec sec left hall 8 peacefully.
Just before the day ends,

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, GORGEROUS~~~

Happy day

2009-01-04T23:42:00.003+08:00

Today is a rather happy day and a good start for 2009.
I get to go out with J~~ for a movie.
Though I run away from my jap lesson one hour earlier,
I think it is worth it.

Come to think of it, I should have gone to play the friendly rather than going for lesson.
I went over to Boon Lay to meet her first as she has photoshoot in school.
Then we travelled down to Plaza Singapura and watch "Yes Man".
After the show, we walked around PS and ended up at starbuck.

Sat there and chatted for at least half an hour before we decide to go home.
Really very happy to spend the afternoon with her.
Whenever I get to see her around, it just brightens up my day.

Am I wrong to get angry?

2008-12-24T00:07:00.002+08:00

I just wonder, am I wrong to get angry over someone who don't do their work.
Especially after I have specifically told that person what to do.

I just been through the fifth game of this year Interhall Recreational Games.
My hall, hall 13 and 15 are the convering hall.
I purposely woke up early just to be at hall 8 and do all the setting up.

I asked my subcoms to come at 9 to help out as I could not get everything done myself.
The guys are alright as they do whatever I requested.
As for this particular person, she came at 9 plus, sat by the side and stoned.
Everyone is running up and down to get things done and she just sit there and watch.
I know she does not know what to do,
so I specifically told her what she can do.

But in the end, another of my subcom did it for her.
I got rather pissed off, and I admit, I used a very harsh tone on her when I told her what she could help.
I am also pissed off with the hall 13 people.
The rec sec dunno what to do, and his subcom stood there with him looking blurred.

I understand it's your first time being a recreational secretary,
but so am I.
If I could make an effort to ask my previous rec sec what's there to be done,
why couldn't him?

I could brief my subcom about the rules of darts before IHRG started,
why could him?
He only started briefing his subcom about the rules 1 minute before the first game started.

His reason for not able to brief his subcom earlier is because he has no time.
What a lousy excuse.
If I have time to get all the stylofoam boards, arrange to brief the subcom, and I usually do all the things alone as John, my assistant rec sec is not around most of the time.
Why could he just do a short briefing when his assistant rec sec is also around?

Today is pissed off with another group of people, the publication.
I dun think they sent people down today.
Only a few photos are took yesterday.

When the darts team make it to the semi finals,
John made an effort to ask the publication to send people down.
But the reply they gave was, they having block bbq, call them down again when the match has ended.
If they can't even stay for just 45 minutes, which is the max time of one game,
I really feel they have no responsibility.

In conclusion, my hall culture sucks.
I wonder if I go to hall 3 or hall 8 next year,
how would it be? What will happened to Hall 10?

Disappointed

2008-12-18T11:18:00.002+08:00

I am really disappointed in myself.
I failed being a responsible recreational secretary.

First of all, I could not get a quite location for my players to train.
Also, unlike other halls, I am not able to provide good food and drinks to my players.
Third, I did not take note of which games has enough players and which does not.

Just take billiard and carrom for example.
As billiard clashes with basketball, I have to let one of the table to walkover
as my player is in the game of basketball at that particular moment.
We could have won that particular game as we were tied at 2-2.
But as my player is not around, I have to concede a 3-2 defeat.

As for yesterday's carrom game, I should have stopped John from playing.
I already knew that he won't be around on the second day,
but I didn't know that another 2 players won't be around on that day.
If I have not put his name in the master list,
I will not have to worried about not enough players at that moment.
Problem was solved as John is willing to come back from the internship course.

But comes to the very end, I am the one to blame for all the chaos.

I thought this December will be a rather interesting month.
But things usually does not occur as what I thought it will be.
I could not excuse myself to enjoy some of the games I like.
For example, I can't afford to be missing from the rec games as John is not around.
When I excused myself to go to basketball as they told me they need centre,
problems happened at the rec game side, and I don't get to play much of basketball too.

I know I am not as good as the others in the team, but if you do not planned to put me in the game, why bother to ask me to go there?

First Silver

2008-12-11T20:43:00.003+08:00

After two days of intensive othello competition,
my hall got second in place and we won ourselves the very first silver medal for the IHRG.
I am so proud of the othello team as it makes up mostly of newbies.

Also, my recovery rate is outstanding.
2 days after the marathon, my thighs are not that sore anymore.
I think by tomorrow, it should be able to get back to normal state.

她那堆水汪汪的大眼睛，
可爱的脸蛋，
真的是越看越美丽。

New Achievement

2008-12-10T01:58:00.002+08:00

It has been so so sooo long since I last blogged.
Exam is finally over, again, and it's time for the Interhall games.
Another busy month.

To start off the busy month,
I went for the Standard Chartered Marathon.
Ran and walked through the full marathon.
It was a nice experience even though I gone through it myself.

It has been 3 days after the marathon,
but my thighs are still sore.
I wonder when will I recover?

Yesterday was the first game of the whole interhall games,
Our othello team make it to the semi final.
Let's just hope they will beat hall 6.

I do not ask for much,
just win hall 6.

I had a very very very short chat with Fangling.
Though it is only a few sentences,
it brighten me up.

I am rather dumb

2008-11-23T12:50:00.002+08:00

Though I am able to achieve 180 when I practise darts yesterday,
but I scratched my face because of that.
It's rather dumb because no one is supposed to get themselves hurt when practising alone.

I had a small chat with my dad,
and I decided to get myself a personal set of darts.
Maybe I will get it if I can find it at queensway.

Sad

2008-11-20T21:35:00.002+08:00

Today might be the last time I will see that special someone I treasure.
She won't be around after the December holiday.

Just rather sad because she is leaving.
Don't know when will be the next time I will see her again. =(

Ambitions

2008-11-20T18:21:00.001+08:00

Hope to be a professional photographer,
or semi pro will do.

Or, be a professional darts player.

Both are rather difficult to achieve.

2008-11-13T21:18:00.002+08:00

Had my Japanese paper.
Feel quite good about it.

But if I get A,
I should not be happy because I should get A as I have studied it before.
If I don't get A,
I can go kill myself.

2008-11-13T14:17:00.002+08:00

I would like to get a new set of darts for myself.
I am looking for either Harrow's steeltip Assassin or Gyro.
As for the weight, I think I have to see the real thing before I can decide.
Because I am not sure what's the weight of the darts I am using now.
Hopefully I can find it somewhere after exam.

2008-11-12T16:36:00.001+08:00

據說
人類本來擁有一雙翅膀生活在天空中
但是
因為貪婪的人類禁不起太多慾望的誘惑
心靈的腐化讓身體不再輕盈
漸漸的
雙翅無法再帶領人們往天空飛
漸漸的
人類捨棄了天空與雙翅
留居於大地之上
所以現在的人類
只能在大地上對著在天空中翱翔的飛鳥
感嘆與羨慕

One month

2008-11-11T20:14:00.003+08:00

I think today marks the day for not going home for one month.
Tomorrow will be first paper for this semester's exam.

Last paper will be on the 27th.
Just another 2 more weeks and exam will be over.

After that, it's another month staying in hall.

Sucky Sucky

2008-11-09T21:29:00.003+08:00

I wonder if I can get A for my jap elective after messing up the listening and oral test. Life sucks when you know you can score in something yet you don't get the grade you deserved.... =(

Alone in Singapore

2008-11-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

I am currently alone in Singapore.
My mom went back to Hong Kong on last Tuesday.
It is because my grandma had a stroke when she was in Shanghai.
As my mom is worried, she flew back to take care of her for the time being.

I wonder...

If something happened to me now,
who will be the first to find out??

This is not good

2008-11-04T23:12:00.001+08:00

Looks like my blog is quite easy to be found.
It may not be safe to write certain if that's the case.

Or maybe I should not give a damn on how they think.

Feeling outcast

2008-11-03T21:53:00.003+08:00

This is a place where I could say whatever I want.
I know there are people who come and read and laugh at whatever shit I write.
But I don't give a damn.

I don't know if I am really too stressed,
or I am just dumb.
Everything I tried to study doesn't seem to be absorbed.

Also, every now and then, my mind will thinking,
thinking of things that are not relevent to my studies.
Mostly about unhappy stuff.

I thought, playing darts will be able to make my mind drift of the unhappy stuff.
But it just make matter worst.
After that time I win somebody 301,
I do not dare to think of winning.

What's the fun of winning the game
when it just end up "demoralising" my own teammate.
What's the point of training so hard when I will be "looked down on" when I win.

Just now, I know he didn't say it on purpose.
"Darts is a block 50's game."
Upon hearing that, I know I am the outcast.

Even in my own block, I have the same feeling.
I know it has nothing to do with the others.
It is just me,
not socialising with them.

Never talk to them every now and then.
Always hide in the room like a caveman.

As days goes by,
I am just feeling more and more unhappy.

Upset about my studies,
upset about my human relation skill.

=(

2008-10-31T01:40:00.001+08:00

I sucks in human relation.
It seems like everywhere I go or do,
I will be getting on someone's nerves.

I think I am better of hiding in my room.

2008-10-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

她是个很好的女孩，
是应该得到更好。

我就不是那位能给到她幸福的人。

希望她能看到这点，
然后胀大眼看看她身边的人吧。
那有一位肯不惜一切，
赴汤蹈火为了令她开心的人存在。

Things that never change

2008-10-25T02:49:00.001+08:00

When you are a piece of shit,
you will always be a piece of shit.

It has been so long

2008-10-21T02:04:00.004+08:00

It has been so long since I last update my blog.
Rather busy recently, with school work and the JCRC stuff.
I have not been sleeping well these days.
Been rather emo too.

Too many things to emo about.
And lazy to type everything down.
After all, no matter what I do,
it just makes me more and more detestable by others.

I wonder if school grades have to do with who you study with.
If you study alone, does that means you will never get any good grades?
I really don't know.
But I am expecting to get straight Ds this semester.

Is there somewhere I can run away to??

Quiet Contemplation

2008-10-20T18:24:00.001+08:00

The soldiers are tired and lonely after spending weeks in enemy territory. To entertain them, the Major called for this sexy dancer from the nearby town.

She came, danced and when the first dance was done, the soldiers went mad. They clapped for 5 minutes.

For her second number, she stripped and danced in sheer bra and G string. This time the applause went for 10 minutes.

The next number she danced topless, and this time the applause went on and on. The Major had to come on stage and ask them to quiet down for the grand finale.

For her last number, she was to strip completely and dance naked. The Major expected the soldiers to make enough noise to bring the roof down. But ten minutes later, there is no clapping and the dancer comes backstage.

The Major asks her, "What happened? How come there was no clapping this time?"

She replied with a wicked smile, "Major, how do you expect those poor boys to clap with one hand?"

One month left

2008-10-14T17:04:00.003+08:00

还有一个月就考试了，
我竟然还没有定下心去读书。

昨晚，我看到他竟然在读书。
一时间，
我觉得我真的应该好好地把以前所学的东西温习一遍。

想我真中没脑的人，
现在不开始温习，
要拿一般的成绩，
想也别想。。

Two wrongs doesn't make one right

2008-10-08T15:09:00.002+08:00

I really think I should not taken up the offer.
It's the biggest mistake I ever made this year.
And because of that,
it just cause the snowball effect.

I think I will be crush by the snowball soon.

I am tired

2008-10-03T21:58:00.003+08:00

I am getting more and more tired.
I realised I am really not fit to lead,
I am able to perform better when I just follow.
I think I should just assist,
let the other party to lead the others.

Tired of the life I am living now.
真得不行了。

2008-09-23T14:52:00.000+08:00

Infatuation - Maroon 5

2008-09-12T17:00:00.001+08:00

Toward the end of our senior year in high school, we were required to take a CPR course. The classes used the well known mannequin victim, Rescue Anne, to practice.

My group's model was legless to allow for storage in a carrying case.

The class went off in groups to practice. As instructed, one of my classmates gently shook the doll and asked "Are you all right?" He then put his ear over the mannequin's mouth to listen for breathing.

Suddenly he turned to the instructor and exclaimed, "She said she can't feel her legs!"

2008-09-08T09:16:00.002+08:00

Saturday was my hall dinner & dance.
This time, I am the audience and I think I enjoyed it more than last year.
Most of the time I spent it with people from block 50.

We maybe a little evil, always critising on the people on the stage.
Does the same happened to me last year?
Anyway, for the first time I get to feel how's it like to be "high".

I drank like 7-8 cups of Chivas,
and by the time I left DXO, I was feeling dizzy.

I am definitely not drunk because I am still aware of what I am doing.
When I reached home, my mom asked me, did you drink alot?

Today Fangling is taking her driving test again.
Hope she can pass it this time.

Rally

2008-09-04T01:40:00.002+08:00

Just had the rally for the 15th JCRC.
I must say I am very lucky because I was not asked to answer any questions.
But the unfortunate ones like Cass and Kwee Swee,
they have to answer tons of questions,
some which I think are nonsense.

Also, I am rather disappointed in some people.
They are asking questions which have nothing to do with rally,
and yet they demand answers.
Furthermore, their questions are about the funds and stuff.
We have not even secured the portfolio we want,
why did they expect us to come up with the budget for the year?

Another thing, it was a rally,
not a platform to be an ass and make a fool out of yourself.

有些人应该反省反省。
自己到底付出了多少，自己知道。
大家不是瞎的，你有做什么和没做什么，我们都看得到。
所以，一直埋怨也是于事无补的。

What am I missing out?

2008-09-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

I have been watching this show,
and the main actor was asked,
do you know what are you missing out in life by holding on to something that might never happen.

I was thinking, am I missing out alot when I kept my feelings to her?
Well, things have been rather complicated.
I myself could not come out with an answer.

Most of the people in hall is like gossiping about me being attached.
I am rather surprised,
because I can consider myself as a nobody in hall.

It's just weird.

Talking about weird,
I have a friend who sent me this sms.

I dun get it, why are you so nice?
I'm always making use of you, yet you're still so nice
You are weird...

Ok, I just do not understand what's wrong being nice?

2008-08-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

Nomiation Day was today.
I did what I was supposed to do.
Get two of my good friend and nominate me to be the recreational secretary.

I do not know why,
but there seems to be an invisible force,
trying to stop me from being the recreational secretary.

Maybe it is just me,
the side of myself which is afraid to take up the position.
Or maybe, I just do not want to take up the position.

I am not sure of it myself.

Changes

2008-08-25T01:19:00.002+08:00

Every now and then, there will be changes.
In every person, there is sure a slight change of their attitude or their working style.

For me, I think I have changed.
One year in university have changed me?
Maybe...

As I grew older, I seem to be unable to take up the post as a leader.
I find myself more comfortable when I have someone to be superior of me.
Maybe is because I could not take the responsible.

In the coming year, I will just have to be prepared to be shot at.
I must first admit that I might not be able to do a good job,
but I will try my best to give my 100%.

Though I say it that way,
I know people out there might not see that I put in 100%.
I just hope it does not turn out like what happened in FOC.
Just one small mistake I made and everyone thinks what a lousy BL I am.

P.S.
Falling sick at a time like this is not good.
But thanks for being there.
Appreciated it...

不安的感觉

2008-08-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

I have been feeling uneasy for the past few days.
I am feeling damn lost in fact.
It just seems like I am entering hell soon.

她真得很美

2008-08-21T11:13:00.002+08:00

她真得很漂亮。
每次看到她的照片，
我都会想起和她一起的时光。

是一直以来我自作多情，
是我自己没有保握机会？

虽然我已经有三个月没见到她了，
但我对她的感觉还是没变。

只是，不知道还有没有机会。

Bias

2008-08-18T09:19:00.003+08:00

I think I am rather bias against certain people.
Maybe is because I am too upright for certain things.
I feel that this certain people do not deserve what they have now.
Also I may feel that they do not deserve to hold certain roles.

Well, I shall just wait and see if things turn out to be the way I feel.
I may be wrong and this certain people might do a good job after all.

2008-08-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

I saw the R8, Murciélago and Gallardo parked outside Hilton Hotel.
I saw them on Friday when I was on my way to Japanese class.
Seeing the R8 simply brighten up my day.

Upon seeing the Murciélago and Gallardo parked together,
It's much more exciting.
Both from Lamboghini, but of different period of time.

Seeing the Murciélago,
it just reminds me of her again.
I wonder how is she doing now.

I went over to Johor with Jing Guang and Jun Qiang on Saturday.
Spent the whole day there eat and walk around.
Caught a freaking lame show at Jusco.
Jusco, how I wish this department store is available in Singapore.

When I am in Hong Kong,
my dad and I like to go Jusco to do our shopping.
Especially to look for nice sushi and steak.

Also get to eat the 老林牛肉面.
And it is really delicious like how Yeehao said.
The soup is light but not tasteless.
The meat is so fresh that you can simply taste its freshness when eating.
The chilli is not bad either, goes well with the beef.

At night, Yeehao gave all of us a lift back to Singapore.
Actually he can drop me off at the nearest MRT,
but he send me to somewhere near my house instead.
Really thank him for the lift.

Went to play basketball this morning.
Woke up late, rush down to Newton and realised the others are late too.
And like last week, we played till 12 plus and it started raining.
Ate lunch at Newton, got home, slack around, nap a while and had dinner.

I think my mom knows about me lying to her about the usage of the car.
She expect me to tell her the truth about where did I go that Sunday.
And in order to keep the lie a truth,
I have to keep to my stand that I have nothing to lie about.

And because of that, my mom had decided not to let me use the car
till the day I am willing to tell the truth.
Actually I have no disadvantage in it.

All along I have been going around in public transport.
It's just once in a while I am lazy
then I will ask for the usage of the car.

Even if I didn't lie to her in the very first place,
I also won't get to use the car often.
So overall, it does not affect me alot.